Twenty-Two and Directionless

I'm back. and I've got some things to say.

The past few months have been extremely difficult (cue whiny personal blogging bitches) for me. I am not a person well-suited to the position I find myself in currently. While I think it's fairly normal and fairly common to be 22, jobless with a humanities degree, directionless and craving anything to boost self confidence, it doesn't mean it's easy. I'm getting a little (beyond?) tired of not knowing what I want. Try something. Apparently, I'm not even that good at trying things. Economic recession, blah blah blah. I know I love and am good at school, but it's never any fun being a walking stereotype. Marge Simpson, "Don't make fun of grad students, Bart, they're just people who made a terrible life decision." And you'll recall my rancor at the Maxim article I posted about.

So, yes, I want to go back to school. I also want to be respected for that decision not seen as a cop-out, a default, an acknowledgment of defeat by the 'real world' or a terrible life choice. I'm sure when I start respecting the decision others will follow suit, at least to my face.

In addition to the social pressure angle taken by Maxim, a friend has showed my a blog by Penelope Trunk that takes up another angle. There are two articles on her blog I'd like to address in this post. The first one is about graduate school naturally.

Trunk lists 7 reasons why graduate school is outdated. She is a careerist (by self definition) and so her take on the purpose of graduate school is already deviating from mine. Plus, her critiques aren't really looking at graduate school as professional development for the professional choice of being a professor. So with those caveats, she makes the following assumptions:

1) Smart people no longer go to graduate school (starting off on a great foot)
--Ok first of all. Since the corporate ladder has become obsolete, because we don't stick in one career path for 30 years anymore, because the principles, morals and values of the professional world have broadened, people like Penelope Trunk are forced to redefine 'success' and 'succeeding'. They do so dubiously and with ambiguous language. Definitions of success get whittled down to such generality as to become useless. I would characterize this new perspective's definition of success along these lines:
1) Financial security with room for financial growth
2) Adequate balance of work-personal life
Success is the ability to live your life. How tautological but at the same time, duh. Trunk claims that the workplace is different. New rules to play the game and new definitions of 'winning'. This is the assumption her advice is working within. Graduate school is no longer a "smart" way to achieve financial security with room for growth and an adequate personal life in the workplace.

Why does she think so?

a) Financial reasons. Graduate school is expensive and it "shuts doors". Two of her seven reasons are directly money related. She is right that it is a large investment (sometimes!). She is also right that most people will have to pay back money borrowed to attend graduate school. Graduate school is a 'stupid' move because of its difficult return on investment. Especially when success is simply financial security and time to enjoy that security. One can achieve 'success' without spending a large sum of money on graduate school. This neglects the fact that some graduate institutions view YOU as an investment in those artsy-fartsy terms like "common good" or "civilization" but also in the 'market' of education (they are institutions afterall). The other assumption is owing money in student loans undermines financial security. Yet, buying a house, renting an apt, leasing a car, buying a car or any other financial activity that either requires loans or is "throwing money away" doesn't fall into this 'undermined financial security' category. In fact, many jobs require a car and many people don't want/can't live at home with their parents. Having student loans "shuts doors" because it undermines your financial ability to take jobs that you want as opposed to jobs that allow you to pay back student loans. However, living at home without a car in order to be financially secure from loans or poor investments certainly shuts doors on jobs as well.

b) Professional Development. Reasons #2 and #5. A graduate degree is no longer a requirement to achieve "success". We have sort of already covered this. Why would anyone pursue graduate school if it wasn't required for success? We don't need graduate degrees anymore so the school is outdated. I think this is just a bit silly. I understand why the previous requirement of an MBA provided enough motivation to get one, but what about the other benefits of an MBA? Really? It's only a ticket? And also, I believe medical school is still a "ticket to play" for a large portion of medicine and law school for a large part of law. And it also seems to be a large ticket to play in the arts & sciences, humanities, academia. So, really, it's no longer a ticket to play in business. But, we never really learned anything in business school anyway..."If you don't use your graduate degree, you look unemployable". This reason doesn't even make sense. How many people are using their undergraduate degree? Certainly the expectations are different between a B.A. or B.S. and a graduate degree, but as "expectations for higher education are increased" (in one of her linked articles) wouldn't the requirement to directly use your graduate degree become laxer? Think of all the myriad professions one can have with an M.S. in Psychology, or my mother for example an M.S. in Information Science. And again, my father, with an M.D. having to spend larger amounts of his professional time in Hospital Administration, Business and Social Work. A degree no longer means you can only do this and anything else is "second choice". We do lots of different things with our degrees.

c) Personal Incompetency. This one upsets me the most. First, she claims that graduate school requires us to know what we want before we start. I have heard from plenty of people who have gone through graduate school that you should wait until you know you really want to go to school. Certainly, it's an investment of time, money and energy. Of course I'd want to be sure I want to do it. Like any other important decision? Trunk utilizes and links us to an explanation of the term "emerging adulthood" as a new development phase that basically I'm in the middle of. In this time, we 20 somethings are to find out what we really want and what will make us happy through trial and error in the workplace. We are directionless and lost and we should be, because if we skip this time period we'll have a quarter life crisis. Her final reason definitely hit home and made me pause to reconsider her points. Mainly because it plucked the directionless lost strings that dominate my heart at the moment. But, like I said, I'm beyond tired of this extended state of limbo that seems to be so important for my development as an adult. Partially, what's pointed out is observed and true and part of it is defining us in a way that I don't think is appropriate. The underlying message is "you are incapable of making important life decisions at this time". This WHOLE thing is hypocritical.

Extension of childhood. (trying to remain calm). Elementary and High School education in America is a grooming for the workplace. We get a bit more freedom in undergraduate programs and room to explore. We find out what we like and then we pursue it in graduate education. This is the traditionally understood notion of educational progression. Graduate school is where one knows what one wants and tries to make an impact or add something new (their two cents) to the world. Graduate school is where you create your own assignments. You choose what to study, you choose what to write, and you write a dissertation. From the observed workplace, you have a boss and you do what you're told. The creation of your own assignments comes from trying not to go insane. The structure of school was put in place so that we'd be good at "jobs" in the workplace. But, she says Benton says many people go back to school "more out of comfort" than because of passion. I don't know about lack of passion, but yes, school is definitely more comfortable for me than an office. On one hand she's telling me I'm incapable of making an important life decision and on the other hand, telling me my choice is an extension of childhood.

Maybe graduate school will be a stupid poor choice. Maybe it's a bigger Error and not much Trial. Maybe the point of all of this to make sure I don't have grand delusions about more schooling. I can see that. I can also see from that the remarkable similarity between graduate school and the workplace. The main message, from others not just Trunk, is that graduate school isn't all fun and games, you have to work, you might not succeed and people may tell you what to do. Well, duh, that's what the real world is. So basically, I'm left with one final response to Penelope Trunk on the subject of graduate school: Hindsight's twenty-twenty.

Other things that bother me: Everyone she quotes in her reasons have higher degrees. Yes they are from a different generation, but it doesn't change the fact that our important theories, observations and guides come from people who spend time thinking about these things, some people think about them so much, it's a career.

THIS IS REALLY LONG I'M SORRY. (it also occurred to me that Trunk is simply the lightning rod of a lot of frustration and "advice" i'm receiving about school)

I'm switching gears on Penelope Trunk and bringing in another article I found through a great blog. Penelope's article is about social media and the Atlantic's article is about online reading behavior.

Trunk blogs about how the different social media that make up the online environment should be able to express different aspects of our personality. However, she finds that many people are flattening their personality so that they appear consistent across multiple media. She is sensitive to the dispositions of the varying structured media, like Twitter, blog, Facebook, etc.
I find personality and social media fascinating. I wrote a comment on her article that sums up my initial reaction:

"I’m glad someone is talking about this. I’m not sure how successful maintaining multi-faceted personalities online will be. The analogy to “real world” relationships obviously is spot on, but the important difference is control over audience. I more than agree that the plethora of social media in which to express ourselves not only works well with our complex personalities, but also is designed differently in which certain behaviors make more sense. However, recall the awkwardness of those “real world” slips, when your boss catches you saying a lewd comment to a coworker, or a social friend accidentally being the outlet for some personal issue that would’ve been better suited for an intimate friend.

Typically we have control over our audience thanks to the whole spatio-temporal network of the “real world”. Sally is in another city or Jimmy walked in a couple seconds too late. But when it comes to all our online media we lose much of that control over audience. Not only is it nice to be able to interact with the same person in different ways, professionally and socially, it's also nice to be able to keep people separate. Which I suppose, over a slew of different privacy settings for each medium one might achieve a similar degree of control, but I think for the average user you are open and out there for any of your networked contacts. And thus, I see a motive for trying to be consistent or flat in character. How do we gauge the level of intimate progression with acquaintances to close friends to family in a potentially undifferentiated space such as the Google search results page?"

The Atlantic article I also find fascinating because Nathan Carr connects our emerging online behavior with the same economic structures that I'm already critiquing. Of course I'm sympathetic to his stance. I lament the loss of silence in my brain, sustained reading, etc etc within the general population as well. However, I'm not that worried about myself. I recently thoroughly enjoyed reading Anna Karenina which as some of you may know, is quite lengthy. And spend a decent amount of time reflecting and letting ideas echo through the hollows of my head. Then again, I'm unemployed. Since I'm a bit fatigued from my already WAY too lengthy post, I'll pick one point to comment on and then hopefully await some fantastic comments from my readers. wink.

Carr quotes Clive Thompson from Wired magazine as describing the phenomenon of online recorded history as "the perfect recall of silicon memory". Hah. First of all. Fantastic description. And the article by Carr is quite a pleasant read.

This description prompted this thought: Recall and Remember are two very different words. Let's be technical and pull out the definition. Among others that don't quite highlight the difference, there is a Oxford-English Dictionary definition of recall that states, "to cause one to remember". There is a subtle difference and much of the two definitions overlap. But we can tease out an intuition in the word remember. It resonates with another point made in the article that played prominently in my education. Reading behavior on the Internet is both structured and structuring. We organize and lay out the content of the Internet, but at the same time, the Internet organizes and lays out information in us. Carr argues that it spills over even into all other types of media. The structure of the Internet is found in television and newspapers now. He cites studies that find reduced ability to concentrate or absorb large amounts of information or reflect.

While I am nervous about this structuring, as I always am, I feel there is a stronger battle occurring. Carr points out how reading is not as natural as speaking. It's a much more learned behavior than instinctual behavior. And therefore, he indirectly concludes, it is more malleable and easily structured by the Internet's processes. The reason I delineate between recall and remember is because remembering is a process that is just as natural as speaking, if not more so. And it's this process that the Internet will have a more difficult time structuring. Silicon may recall for us, but it cannot remember. Remembering is a human activity, completely loaded. Remembering is inextricably interwoven with interpretation. We still have to interpret the information the Internet recalls. And how we choose to do that, is still very much under our control. We may not be able to fudge facts and the information we're allowed to see may be structured (aka biased) discreetly by the Internet's algorithms etc. but persuasion, interpretation, and a critical intellectual eye are still as indispensable now than ever.

sometimes the faucet drips

Oy. I'm amped on coffee.

Conversations with a six year old:

"Were you in a war?"
-No
"Are you sure?"
-Pretty sure.
"Well, that's your sword isn't it?" (referencing the decorative sword I purchased in Toledo, Spain and has been kept in the basement office since moving here).
-Ah, well, yes it is
"Did you kill someone?"
-No, that sword is for decoration only.
"Are you ever gonna kill someone?"
-I don't know, I don't plan on it.


"Don't you like their singing?" (referencing the Cheetah Girls on the television).
-I don't think they are actually singing.
"Yes they are, can't you hear them?"
-No, I think they are just dancing to music that is playing.
"No, they're singing, look." (points emphatically at the TV)
-Have you ever tried to dance like that and sing at the same time? *pause* What happens when you dance around like that?
"Well I get tired." (bends over and pretends to breath heavily)
-Exactly, it'd be tough to sing like that while dancing. I think someone else is doing the singing.
(She turns up the volume on the TV) "Can't you hear them singing? Duh."
Mom interjects siding with Lilly, "I wouldn't bother, Lil."

"You'll always be older than Kyle, right?"
-Yup.
"So when he's 21 you'll be 23?"
-Uh, yeah pretty much. We get older at the same pace.
"And he'll always be older than me?"
-Yeah, see, we both go to bed at night and wake up the next day, and that day we're both one day older.
"What?! No, it's not like one day I'm 6 and the next day 7 and then 8 and 9."
-No, no, you don't get a year older every day, just a day older. You're 6 and let's say 100 days old, but tomorrow you'll be 6 and 101 days old, and I'll be 22 and 101 days old.
"Ohhhhh, I get it, we get a day older."
-Yeah, because we all get older at the same speed. We go to sleep and wake up together.
"Kyle too?"
-Everyone on the planet. Time is universal. Well, at least it sort of is...it's at least the dominant paradigm.


I recently finished In the Skin of a Lion and it was fantastic. I also spent last night, before falling asleep, thinking of some really amazing images and started to write in my head. I hate it when that happens because I always feel like I need to capture it, but I know getting up and getting out something to write with will force the train of thought into the shadows. Anyway, I'm too caffeinated at the moment to write anything creative. or recall the previous nights images. They were some good ones, beginning with snapshots from my time abroad. It was a great reaffirmation, making me appreciate having done what I did. Helps to relieve some of the stress I'm currently experiencing due to my situation.

I really like sleeping next to a window.
the heart's a lonely hunter.

Completely Uninformed Political Ranting

So, I don't know jack squat about the E.U. or U.S. Politics. But, it's my flippin blog, so I'll say what I want.

I read a recent NY Times article about Ireland's recent rejection of the Lisbon Treaty. Now I have no idea what the Lisbon Treaty was attempting to address, or how it affected any of the European Nations. However, my increasing opinion that either the United States needs to split into at least four large regional "countries" or swing way more political power back into State and Local governments seems to color my reactions to the limited exposure to E.U. politics.

As a side note, this article (yes, by golly gee whiz! never noticed it before!) is probably one of the most slanted or unapologetically biased articles I've read by the Times. Sccccarrry.

This is my worry. (recall my rants about the future of medicine and Google, woOooOOoOo)

Ok so here we go. The United States government, large, alienating, not really a democracy, etc etc. (as another interesting side note check out this video of Noam Chomsky.) Has nevertheless provided a very nurturing environment for corporations to grow large large and become the boo nasty hiss TNCs (trans-national corporations). Also, a very successful environment for an elite ruling class to rule under almost impervious ruse of democracy, election, support of the ruled. When, in fact, the ruled often don't support the ruling. Let's see what was I reading recently. Ah, yes, Slaughterhouse Five by Vonnegut. The 100 American prisoners of war arrive at a camp in....can't remember where there are also British and Russian POWs. The Brits are appalled at the lack of refinery and general animalistic behavior American POWs. Then Vonnegut does a delightful explanation of the American phenomenon of the poor to despise themselves and blame themselves for their lot, when in fact, responsibility most solely lies upon the ruling class, the rich, the elite. But somehow, in America, we've turned that around with our National Myth of pulling oneself up by one's bootstraps and so, for arguably the first time in History, the ruling class in America, is not responsible for those it rules. Interesting. So accepting this, we then look at the development of the E.U.

Centralize centralize centralize. How the hell are we still moving in this direction!? Why are we continuing incessantly in this direction, toward centrality? We are so OVERLY centralized that nothing makes sense and nothing works. De-centralize, de-centralize. I take it all back. Centralization simply needs to occur in different areas, not the ones it's currently existent or being worked upon. Centralization needs to happen 1) geographically, people need to live where they work. this suburb structure is ridiculous. food needs to be grown where it's eaten, who isn't sick of semi's clogging up highways? POWER on the other hand, needs to be decentralized. because by decentralizing food, housing, electricy, goods, peoples, those in power are CENTRALIZING, let's use another term, consolidating, their power. by centralizing the other side, where food is grown, where we live, blah blah blah, we then decentralize the power. and make it more pertinent. ok rant.

So, while the Times article paints the Irish voters as a) dumb as bricks and not aware of all the miraculous benefits ratifying the Lisbon Treaty was eagerly awaiting to bestow upon them or b) spoiled brats who received European handouts to modernize the country (this is not necessarily a positive moral connotation) and is now refusing it to new E.U. countries

Certainly, Ireland had voters who voted against the Treaty who fit both of the above categories. But, I'm guessing, there's also Irish voters who know what the E.U. is, what the Treaty was doing, and just plain thought it was a bad idea, regardless of any xenophobia. So first off, kudos to Ireland having a law that requires these type measures be put to referendum instead of resting in the hands of the executive and legislative bodies like many other E.U. countries. However, the Californian water development and issues (or the American political system in general when it comes to "elections" rather) makes it plainly obvious that even public referendums are largely controlled by those with the budgets to campaign. it's at least a step in the right direction and perhaps Ireland doesn't have the same weaknesses as the American public does.

The second thing is that Ireland (from what I understand) voted no in the referendum because of fears that power would be shifted from Ireland to the E.U. (more power) now this may be misunderstood, or it may be not the "true" case of the Treaty, however, i resonate with those fears, real or imagined. I see the E.U. growing more and more similar to the environment we have here in the States. And since many of the boo nasty hiss TNCs are no longer so "American" in origin but "European" rather (even though TNC as term moves beyond nationality) insofar as "the West" is the 'first' world and everybody else is playing catch up.

So, wtf? No, give more power back to our State and local governments here in the U.S. and no! keep power in the individual countries of the E.U. I mean, I feel as though, if anything, the E.U. should be looking at the disastrous mess over here and saying, uhm, no we are not moving in that direction. But I suppose form the viewpoint of the ruling elite, America is a damn good model. Un-encumbered opportunity to make limitless wealth without any liability for resulting consequences. the American dream. and currently, a dream come true for a small portion of the world.


Perhaps my beloved anonymous could spare an opinion or two on the matter.

oregon

i met a woman on the train who only ate oranges before she cut her fingernails. I don't like the rind's orange tint in my nails, so when I'm ready to clip my nails I allow myself the luxury of peeling, deeply the fortified orange and its formidable peel. Leaving there, under the white crescents a telltale orangish tint.

i swiveled my head to gaze lazily out the window again. since when did we move so swiftly....?

In Honor of the Olympic Trials

No single individual is capable of being good at life solely on their own merit. It takes a tight knit network of support to allow and encourage an individual to put normal people to shame.

Well, it's no secret that Will Leer has been part of that tight knit supportive network that has allowed me to explore all the possibilities of being really really ridiculously awesome at life. And I'd like to think the favor has been returned.

Well, in honor of both the Prefontaine Classic and the Olympic Trials, I thought I might stroll down memory lane for a wee bit to set the mood for an amazing weekend.

The Prefontaine Classic will be aired on NBC and/or ESPN from 1pm-3pm PST this Sunday.

Will is running in both meets. The Classic this weekend and the Trials over July 4th weekend. This video below was put together by an outstanding colleague and teammate of ours Alec Lentz. It's quite enjoyable.

I'm Lucky I Got Out Alive

Reporters Expose Airport Security Lapses By Blowing Up Plane

Prada is Sexy.

so I did miss my connection on my flight. but luckily the airline put me up in a hotel for free. !! right? So, I ended up leaving on Wednesday afternoon and getting to my destination Thursday night. Fantastic. But since then the Midwest has welcomed me back with open arms. I promptly jumped in the car early Friday morning to drive 5.5 hours to Osh Kosh Wisconsin for the NCAA Division III Track Championships where my loveliest high school teammate was participating in my beloved steeplechase. She got fourth, booyah. Then, back in the car on Saturday for 5.5 hours before jumping in my brother's car and driving my tired caffeinated self 3.5 hours to my father's little lakeside trailer to spend Memorial Day weekend with the family. Welp, on Sunday evening an F5 Tornado hit a mile or two away from our trailer, with the cell all around us and pretty much scaring the bejeezes out of me. I've been in the state for less than 72 hours and it's already trying to kill me: the feeling's mutual. But I did not die. I lived. And here I am. Today, I woke up late, ate cake for breakfast, played Guitar Hero and got depressed and angry about my job search. I was going to rant about that here, but I accidentally let it spill on some friends and my younger brother, so it's kind of been cleared. But who knows, I'm certainly not emotionally settled about it, so we may see another outburst on here at a latter date.


But to be fair, I went for a short run today. I'm fat and out of shape. well not so fat, but feel fat when I run. and I was huffing and puffing. The lungs were not pleased. What the hell. But its ok. I still haven't hit one year yet for my year "off" so, who knows, perhaps by mid-June i"ll have somewhere to live and a schedule with a job etc. By golly, why I might even join a gym like the rest of the soul-less country. My B.


I made some summer drinks out of suggestions from a magazine. God, that sounds horrible. but let's be honest. i did. and they are delicious. My new favorite summer drink. Improvised of course, tailor made for Shan. Perhaps we'll call it the Shan, or to throw props to the original, the Shan Americano. Its two shots sweet vermouth one shot Campari. And, if you're looking for a less bitter drink, splash some Sprite or soda in there. So good. I like Campari, and not just because of Steve Zissou...



but other than that. The midwest is quiet...a little too quiet. But i did mention that I dug through my old library? Yes. Fantastic. I put up the new reading list with all the stuff I want to read/reread so yippee. That is if I can tear myself away from Guitar Hero (wtf?)



For Old Times' Sake:






Dearest Matchmaker.

How grateful I am for your comment! I received your comment around the same time i was doing some digging through my library in the basement and I had come upon two books that I thought I had lent to a friend and never got back. But what now, I find them amongst my boxes and physically jumped, sharp intake of air and clutched the books to my chest. And then, your comment sent me to cloud nine and right then and there it became quite clear to me that grad school here I come. It only makes sense.

SO YES. Many many good things.

First (not that this should belie any sort of structure to my response):

Dualities, hierarchies and other naughty folk. I felt that toward the end of my four years of education (which you are QUITE right, was aimed at moving beyond dualities) that I came more and more into my own as opposed to defaulting to professor opinion. I had the beginnings of discussion about these nasty beasts with Zayn, perhaps the most explicit advocate of plurality and moving beyond dualism in the department. However, we never got too far. Matchmaker, I'm just not convinced by the move. In fact, I think either a) it's impossible or b) impractical. I know whence this opinion stems. It would be the work of Catherine Bell specifically in her book Ritual Theory, Ritual Practice. In summary, she describes the phenomenon/social practice of ritualization as a universal practice at least to some extent. Yes yes, anthropologists and sociologists watch thy tongues, but she does a damn good job of it. And really, the way she presents it the ritualization orders, structures, reinforces and embodies those dualities, hierarchies and other nasty bits that we have create, discover (pick one, haha ( or two or all). So yes. that's the first bit. (i would like to explore what a ritual would look like, or ritualization, or our structure system of "pluralities" if they are to come replace our dualities). So the first bit, I'll concede there may be room for Catherine Bell's work with stickier situations like pluralities. She acknowledges that things are dynamic, fluid, structured and structuring (one of Zayn's favorite isms). Which. I think, the fluidity of hierarchies, power dynamics, and "the rules of the game" i.e. phenomena such as ritualization being essentially open to all parties is enough to safeguard having those nasty bits around. Now, I realize that's a big hope. We'd have to take on the whole concept of the ritual expert Bell speaks about, which is like the scholar, the priest, the brahmin, etc etc etc.

However, the second bit with which I take issue is the plurality concept itself. Yes, its amorphous and sticky messy ewwww where are my categories?! But still, I'd like to believe I dislike the concept for more than the reactionary squirmishness. First of all, we should perhaps get our ideas of plurality straight. How I see the plurality is the attempt to take the fluidity of duality and categorize it into a unified one, or single graspable concept. Similar to what you were discussing with two becoming the new one. this is how i've reacted to plurality. Especially with the stereotypical slippery slope of some of the post-modern or post-post modern thinking. I ran into this problem senior year when I read the article "On the Very Idea of a Conceptual Scheme" by Dave Davidson. And while I like Darryl's explanation (and visual representations) of conceptual schemes in motion, I think you can't escape the totalization, or systematization of any sort of plurality. because any way we try to discuss the practicality of it, aspects of a plurality interact in certain ways etc etc. I agree with the danger of the popular but incorrect "scientific" perspective. We should always keep in mind that our "truths" "axioms" et al. are observationally and empirically based. (or so would be my theoretical framework). So, while we may agree that the way particular aspects within a plurality interact in certain ways by no means does this provide us with any sort of statistical information on how any other aspect could relate (as if it could be so quantified). So right, we're either stuck with the plurality that's a case by case deal (from which we then approximate i.e. categorize in order to DO something with it, i.e. exert power, i.e. influence, i.e. our existence) I know this is a tricky train and could be subverted, but, not without great effort i think. because if you take on board the plurality idea, it's not alone. It comes with the foundational shift that one implicitly makes with it. So yes, we can agree that much ickiness has resulted from categorization, polarization, and duality enforcement, but an infinite amount seems right out.

Uprooting the duality structure uproots along with it our notions of power and in my opinion empirical or existential or what have you, on how we find ourselves to be "here" exactly, wherever that may be. Do you think it trickles this far? Or am I bonkers?

The binary nature of nature. Hmm yeah. I guess I wouldn't want to jump in that camp either too eagerly, but it's where Bell digs at my scientific heart. The basis for much of theory of ritualization requires the ritualization of the body. And since the dynamic/phenomenon is structured and structuring, we find that our bodies are not only structured to a certain extent WITHOUT our abstract ideas thoughts systems, person-person interactions etc, but then also in turn STRUCTURES all those ideas, thoughts, concepts, social systems, etc. So yeah, its a rough argument to break with the commonsensical notion of right hand left hand. and basic orientation opposites in how we seem to "naturally" orient ourselves within our environment. We find numerous subversive natural inclinations as well though. So it would seem to me that it's the fluidity not the structure that's important. but perhaps we're saying the same thing.

yes, interesting about the androgyny. I haven't been privy to much scholarship on alternative identities and theory etc. which, too bad. I did want to try to minor in something like that stuff. but from a "lay" persons perspective, i would say that androgyny (despite the etymology) comes off (in the observed phenomenon, not the concept) as being much more obviously C as opposed to hermaphroditism which seems to me plainly mix equal parts A and B to get AB. Androgyny I think displays more of the signification that Darryl speaks about, the repetition with a difference that is a new thought in dialogue. Whereas hermaphroditism seems more like summary. Perhaps that's so off base.

Anyway, to wrap this up. I looked a while for a good photo but alas, I'll post yet another video. Which I know I've posted David Bowie before, so it's a bit out of control now and it'll have to be the last time. But, its a bit fuller than a photo in that respect because Bowie moves, and sings and etc and it ALL feeds into this androgynous image or C. Something new is being created, not blended. Interesting.